Wednesday. The middle of the week. Hump day, as some people refer to it, may be as hard as Mondays to get through. On this foggy Wednesday morning however, I feel more motivated than I have the past few days because the Association I work for has enrolled me in a virtual training seminar series and I am loving it so far! The idea was for me to watch the seminars and get ideas so I can create my own training program for our Directors and Managers. Although I am not too keen on public speaking, I feel that since this year I have vowed to do the things that scare me, I will give this my all and see what happens. I have been listening to a podcast in the mornings on the way to work and although it’s not a motivational podcast, one of the ladies on the blog, Georgia Hardstark, said something yesterday that really motivated me. (I am going to paraphrase it since there was some inappropriate language) she said she is not a perfectionist so she goes into things with the attitude of “let’s try this and see what happens and then you learn from your mistakes and can quit it if it sucks”. I am by no means a perfectionist, but I have always felt like I cannot start something unless I have everything prepared beforehand or that I need to have all the knowledge about the topic first. For example, my training programs were supposed to have been done already, but I didn’t create them because I feared I didn’t have enough knowledge to train other people which is why I pushed to be enrolled in the seminars. Although I think being prepared is smart, if you are waiting for all your preparations to come together perfectly you may miss your chance to start that thing you have been wanting to do. A life changing opportunity may be available and within reach, but you don’t go after it because you don’t feel fully prepared.
Go after it anyways because you will learn valuable lessons in failing and even if you succeed you will still experience things that needed to happen that you would not have experienced had you of not gone after what scared you.
This blog scares me. The thought of putting my information out on the internet where it can always be pulled up later on is terrifying. What if I say something wrong or offensive? What if no one cares what I have to say or what if I am not interesting enough? But what if I don’t do this? What kind of experiences would I miss out on or what kind of lessons would I never learn if I wasn’t brave enough to start this blog?
I hope you go after whatever it is you have been wanting to
do. Don’t let that life changing opportunity pass by because it may never come
Since I was young I have always enjoyed writing. I kept journals and wrote in them daily, mostly about what my day entailed so I could reread my own words and remember how each day felt. As I get older I have less time to write and usually only do so when I am stressed because its soothing to just let go of the day by writing it all out. When I look back at things I have written I often wonder if making my journals public would help other people out there because of the way in which I write. It is always raw and genuine because I write in the moment. I don’t take the time to de-stress or calm down, I just write.
This blog will follow my journey through life as I try to stay motivated each day, continue to learn new things and most importantly do the things that scare me the most. I truly hope that my posts inspire you to be better, show you that you are not alone, and also encourages you to do the things that scare you so you can grow into the person you are destined to become.
2018 was a “me” year. Just about everything I did somehow revolved around me and I often found myself frustrated by things that made me feel like I wasn’t progressing or things that may have not been exactly what I wanted. At the end of the year, as you would expect I wasn’t any happier than I was at the beginning of the year. I found that chasing meaningless things pushed me further from my purpose which is something I have struggled to find all my life. I still do not know exactly what my purpose is, but I do know that God has one for me and I know that you will not find your purpose at the bottom of a bottle or within your significant other. You won’t find it in your new house or car. You will find it by listening, trusting, and following God. Each footstep you take towards Him leads you closer to the path you are meant to be on and to the destiny that awaits you. I may not discover my purpose in 2019, but at the end of the year I will be 365 steps closer to the purpose that I know God has in store for me. And when I get to that point, I will be wiser, kinder, healthier, and more patient so that when I do know my purpose I will be prepared to step up to it.
2019 will be the year that I take the time to learn more about myself. It will be the year that I find out just how strong I really am, what I will tolerate and what I will not. This year I will not be dependent upon the things that I have in the past and will move forward in the year with a new clarity. In 2019 I will travel to discover the beautiful world that God created. I will be more open to opportunities and will do the things that scare me. I have never made a new year’s resolution before because I never believed that anything would actually change, but this year is different. On January 2nd, 2019, I woke up early, worked out, ate healthy, cleaned my house, and for the first time in my life I made resolutions for the New Year and not only that, but I made goals that I know I will not only achieve, but far exceed.
I hope this year is the year that changes your life.